Proverbs 2 provides a window of understanding for least one reason why we have periods of spiritual apathy. If you ever have a question about why God seems distant at times, here is an explanation. Solomon says to find the knowledge of God, you must be passionately committed to your search, you must be all in.
Suppose I told you that you could find millions of dollars of treasure in your back yard, all you have to do is go find it. Would your response be passive? Would you start your search after you have had a nap or watched your favorite TV program? Would you put your search off until a more convenient time? Would you worry about the neighbors thinking you are weird because you are digging up your yard? Would you sit in your house and complain that you don’t have time to search or that you don’t want to get your clothes dirty?
No, if you believed the treasure was there you would not be deterred by any of these things. You would be consumed with your search. Solomon is saying this is how we must approach finding the knowledge of God. How committed are you to finding the knowledge of God? Are you “all in” for God?
My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding,
and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding,
and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure,
then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. Proverbs 2:1-5