“I missed the future. Obviously I knew even before his recurrence that I’d never grow old with Augustus Waters. But thinking about Lidewjj and her boyfriend, I felt robbed. I would probably never again see the ocean from thirty thousand feet above, so far up that you can’t make out the waves or any boats. so that the ocean is a great and endless monolith. I could imagine it. I could remember it. But I couldn’t see it again,…”
Hazel Grace Lancaster, The Fault in our Stars
Does death rob us of our future?
The answer is no. God in his gracious and loving providence has planned your days down to the millisecond. Your life is filled with exactly what he intended. No more, no less. No life is cut short. There is nothing that any of us will miss in life beyond the days that were given to us. Hazel was robbed of nothing except being able to experience God’s deep comfort and joy in the face of death and terminal cancer. God robbed her of nothing. Her life was not enriched by egging a car or by angry speech or by having sex on her terms. It was diminished by those things.
Your every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. Psalm 139:16-17
Does God have something better for you than what you can imagine?
Absolutely, yes! God is not limited by what you can imagine or desire, even if there is terminal illness. Living by faith means that no matter how awful or wonderful your life is, you have reasons for joy and hope. God’s future is more wonderful than anyone could want. You can take joy in knowing God is able to do immeasurably more than all you can ask or imagine. Ephesians 3:20
Is pain real and unrelenting? Are the afflictions of life so stark and searing that the next moment can seem to be forever in coming? Can all the good things you have planned suddenly be crushed like a beautiful crystal vase that slips from you hand and shatters into a million life-piercing shards?
But even when life falls apart with the force of an earthquake, God is your refuge and your strength. Even then, especially then God says be still and know that I am God. God has better things for you.