This night brings no certainty about the next day. I know what I would like to see, but then I think of all that could happen and all the good that might be left undone. I want to be healed, but then there are so many that need healing. There are so many that hurt.
I want my family to be known and cared for by you. But there is so much more than my family that needs to be cared for. I think about tomorrow and I feel so inadequate, so incapable of knowing how to pray to you, the one who knows me better than any other.
I am at a loss of how to come before you. Not because you haven’t made the way clear, you have! Not because you haven’t blown me away with your grace, you have done that as well. I am at a loss because the need of you is so great I am overwhelmed at knowing even what words to say. The world I live in sees no need of you. Holiness is a joke, a something to be scorned. Your beauty is exchanged for lies that dangle the joy of human comfort before a lusting church.
O Lord, where do I go? I must pray, but the words, the thoughts, won’t come. Only your people loving you deep within themselves will be bring hope. But now, even as I write, your Spirit, though your word, draws me to you. The greatness of your holy character is what will sustain me, my family and those whom you have called to yourself. I pray that I will be content with trusting you to be faithful to who you are and to me.
Restore my troubled soul. Draw those who love you to see the wonder of Who you are. Heal our land with a vision for the purity and holiness of your character. Give me rest this night that my hope lies in you – my Father, my God, my Savior.
In the name of of my Savior, Amen and Amen.